I’ve been dreading this post for a while now. I am currently suffering through a virus that seems everyone around me is getting I figured now would be the perfect time to pour my heart out since I am stuck in bed.
As many of you know we moved to New Jersey after serving 8 years in the military. The change was fast and drastic far from anything we were accustom to or prepared for. After much soul searching and dreaming hunting the hubs and I settled and went over our options.
There were days where all I wanted to do was pack up my things and move back to California with the kids. I was homesick and I didn’t like anything that was around me because it wasn’t “home” It was stressful.
The hubs joined the military straight after high school so with no prior work experience job hunting wasn’t easy. Job hunting for me was a piece of cake and work flowed but not with the high expectations I had. The hubs finally decided to attend school and training for his CDL and we are now preparing for a big career change.
We knew truck driving would be similar to the military but trust me when I tell you that nothing can prepare you from going from a 2 parent house hold to 1.
I went thru many underways (mini deployments) and a deployment before having kids while the hubs was in the military. The hardest part was communicating and worrying for your significant others safety. I was lucky to have gotten preggo both times while the hubs was on shore duty(off a ship on land) He was never away from home for more than 48hrs and the kids were so small that they probably wouldn’t have noticed anyways. If anything happened while he was away my family and friends were just a call away.
Now we are preparing for him to leave for some training and we won’t be seeing him for about 8 weeks. I am nervous and anxious to see what it will be like for him to be away especially since he will be on the road a good 45 days.
Though I have always been pretty independent being in a new state away from my family is scary. I am lucky to have the hubs family but still all is unfamiliar. I fear getting stuck on the side of the road with a flat or having to take the kids to the ER alone. Most of all I fear the nights the kids will freak out because daddy isn’t home to give them a hug and kiss goodnight.
I am sad to see him go but i know this will be something great for us.
It’s a matter of days before daddy is gone and we must now learn to say “see you later” for the first of many times that will come.