I’m almost in tears going thru pictures of my little ones. Why? Well I got the call I’ve been awaiting impatiently… I’ve been hired!
Although i am ecstatic and beyond blessed, I feel like I’m being torn away from my babies.
The whole reason why i quit my job in the first place was because i wanted to spend more time with little man. My job at the time, unfortunately, was getting in the way of me enjoying my first born. I was also 6 months pregnant and knew i wanted to witness every milestone in little lady’s life. I know now that, that isn’t possible but back then i wanted to be the first to see it all. I had already missed 10 months of little man’s life working 2 hrs away and working 10 hrs a day i would be gone from 5am to 9pm it was rough.
Now that we have relocated and are starting a new. The kids are a little grown and i have someone who can watch them. So we decided why not go back into the working field after all I’m not just a mom I’m also a wife and an individual. Plus we could really use the extra money. I felt i was almost losing myself at times. I have always worked or gone to school and when i took this year and a half off i felt like i was lacking something in my life. I love spending time with my kids but i know to be a great mother to them i need to be happy and i think going back to work now is the best thing.
I know it’s going to be hard but in the end we can all gain from it. I need them to interact more with family and being with grandparents will help especially since grandma is always on the go and participating at the Y. I also promised my self not to be far away so i chose a job close by and a job that didn’t require me to work more than 8 hours a day.
Little man and little lady won’t be too far and they will always be in great hands. I will miss them but I know they won’t love me any less from being gone for a few.
I start today! Wish me luck and little man and little lady too. This will be the first time not seeing me for more that 5 hrs. yikes!